Yes I am on Vacation

I know that I am on vacation right now and I really shouldn’t be worrying about this but heck I am.  So Ira and I are in Germany.  We spent one night and a day in Heidelberg, the city of my birth, and are spending three days in Frankfurt.  This is day two in Frankfurt.  Ira’s catching a bit of a cold in my opinion but all in all things are good.  I think this vacation is going well, although I am really going to miss Ira.  I know it’s not like I saw him all that much when he was in Bulgaria, but it was nice to know that he was a telephone call away.  I know I am in the Peace Corps and part of that experience is to leave your friends and family and move to a foreign land to help  people, but the truth is I don’t always feel as though I am helping.  I don’t always feel as though I am doing something good.  I just don’t see the contribution that I am making.  I have kids who don’t listen and don’t care and I haven’t really been able to make friends with my non-english speaking colleges, and the possible cancer that I may have from second-hand smoke shows that I am trying.  I haven’t had that moment that makes all of this feel worth wild.  I hope I have it soon.