Sorry this post has nothing to do with the Peace Corps

So how am I doing?  I get this question with the sympathetic head tilt.  Although I normally can’t see the head tilt, I can feel it over the phone.  This of corse is due to the fact that I am single.  I am really really bad at being single.  I haven’t really been single for more than a few months since I was 15 years old.  Does that make me a bad person?  Or does that make me a bad or uninteresting person?  Does this make me co-dependant.  I seem to constantly need validation of my self-worth.  I may have done over 500 hours of community service work in high school, but I got a pretty nice ribbon for it.  Although I didn’t do it for the ribbon and had no idea that I was getting said ribbon until my name was called.  I guess what I am asking myself is, what are my motivations in life.  I grew up thinking that everything would just figure itself out, and when that didn’t happen, I just kept going with what made since at the time.  Stupidity runs its corse sometimes.  I know what my ultimate fantasy, get on  the boat to fantasy island fantasy is, and I guess to make those dreams come true you have to do work for it.  The truth is I am tired of letting people push my emotions around.  But I also and really bad at being alone.